God grant me the serenity....

Hola! It's been a while! Man life really does move fast. It's been hard to keep up, but today was a good day.

I'm sure this topic is nothing far from the brain to most my age....you know that age when you truly start to see life for what it is....fast! I for one am VERY ocd...and he'll I'll admit it I'm not very happy about big life changes. Honestly, it all scares the he'll out of me. But I've decided, well this crazy year decided to teach me a lesson. It is that things happen for a reason & while I may not agree I have to go with it. This year has really tested me.

Today we had a baby shower for my little brother Zack. Yes, the little boy that I use to bathe, feed, spank & put to bed. The little boy that I always tried to protect.Today was hard, while I've known it was coming, it's still tough. The thought of my little babies growing up is so hard. I think I get that way because, bluntly, its not the vision I had for that little boy I helped raise. But thats just it I have to learn to agree with the paths put in my loved ones lives. It's a controlling thing, I vision that the only "good" path is the one I've put together....because I think its best, but really? Do I have that say? No, and thats what I've got to grip. I've got to help him in this situation & help him grow with it. That is what I take away from today. Im proud of him & I'll be even more proud when I watch him offically become a father to my 1st niece Za'kiah. Brother I won't let you fail ..don't worry, this is your path, I'll just be right by you to guide & help as I always have.

If you are having trouble accepting things. Just know they will be what they are. You cannot force what isn't meant to be. Make the best of what you can for you & remember it's happening for a reason learn the lesson & keep up!
......God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change those that I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

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OVO xoxo

......WOW.....This year has been the craziest whirlwind. Ive experienced life cringing tragedies & new life beginnings. While I can't believe it's already 3/4 over, and slightly happy about it, today is my 27th birthday! Birthdays have always been a big deal to me, because of my mom. Crazy, for some reason I feel like I'm stretching across the "old" line. I know many consider that line @ 30, but this year no big plans or plots. I really just wanted to be with my family.  Of course the way adulthood & married life work combined means I have no time really anyway. And I'm ok with that.

Dom has been attending this Authentic Manhood lecture & last night mentioned the Tuesdays topic was "How Life Moments Define Our Lives Without Knowing". Birthdays happen to be one of those for me. My mom always made sure my day was great. We didn't have a lot, but she always went beyond for my day. I remember one year she happened to work 3nd shift, so at midnight like always, she called me.  But the next morning by time I left for volleyball practice she hadnt made it home. When I get home from school her, Niesha, Zack & some of my friends were on the porch holding up huge painted signs that said "Happy Birthday Christa". Now to make sure you understand....my mother is not into crafts at all....I never remember her doing any crafts so the fact that she made those massive signs meant a lot! All my friends signed them and of course we had cookie cake & ice cream, my favorite! I hung them up in my bedroom for years. That is just one of the many examples of my mom's willingness & drive to do so much with little. I think she knows, but I am very grateful to have her & I  appreciate all those birthday suprises & all the other great things she did for me. I see those moments live through me as I try to make everyone's days special. I just feel if you have opportunities to make a birthday or any other day special, why not. It's the effort that matters. So today I appreciate everyone for all of their happy birthday's & well wishes! I'm so blessed today & everyday!