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Saturday, November 8, 2014
Mini love of my life
Today is a great day. It's Dalen Asher Wilkins 4th birthday! Who just happens to be the best stepson on earth. I'm 99.9% sure of it.
4 years ago, I loved this little boy before I knew him. And although this was probably the scariest day of my life I have such fond memories. The moment dom left the me to go to Little Rock I knew our lives were changing forever. I had 7 or so months to prepare. I know you'd think why would she have to prep, right? No! Eventhough I was not physically responsible for him, I was emotionally attached to the life of him. The thought, fortune & soul of this little boy were in my heart well before he'd taken his first breath. I know weird situation & there is no book, guide or song that artfully explains how this should work. So you bet I was so confused. The love his father, Dom and I had was undiffusable. Although we'd previously tried to call it quits.....for about 6mths to be exact. That's not what was meant to be. While the timing of our "re dating" phase couldn't have been at a worse. I believe it was just meant to be. Imagine this man had to tell me he loved me, wanted to be with me & that he was having a child with someone else all in the same breath. As much as people will think poor Christa at this point, I knew how hard Dom was dealing with it & as much as wanted to walk away single, young & free....nothing in my being would let me. Completely a magnetic connection. I was drawn to him. Hell I still am! Every single day. Only difference now is I get to help with the upbringing & life of Dalen. I wouldn't have it any other way. He is my joy! Bad love story? It really isnt. Eventhough the enitre structure is a day to day process. Dalen makes it all worth it. I've enjoyed being in this journey and I can't wait to watch him grow up to be a loving, caring, respectful, smart, athletic & passionate man just like his wonderful daddy. Thank you baby for being such a great daddy for the last 4 years. He really is a blessed little boy & I know he knows it. :) I love you more than I feel I can wordly explain Dalen. Daddy & Christa love you so much HAPPY 4 YEARS NINJA DALEN!
Monday, November 3, 2014
178 days ago...
I've literally woke up for the last 178 days with a new last name. I've been Christa Wilkins for that long? Crazy. I've been a wife for half a year! Woohoo go me! No, go us! We went through a lot before we got married & this part has been easy breezy. I think we both learned so much about each other throughout the last 5 years of our relationship that we know our boundaries for marriage. So it's been a great 178 days! Not saying we won't cross those days, but right now I'm just enjoying the Wilkins'.
Baby, you've seen me at my worst, my best, my hurt & my joy.....you are my best friend. My confidant. My provider. My encourager. My purpose. And I've needed you to play every single role this year. For that I apologize to you, love. I am sorry that you've unfortunately had to be on this ride with me, but I'm so glad I have had you. This would have been impossible if I didn't have you. And frankly you've done a damn good job at it! Thank you!
So many lessons have come to me this year & I've really had to deal with them as they've come up, but I'm taking note.
Live to be each others #1 supporters. Although I know we currently do this we must continue through the ugly, the beautiful & just everyday life. Only then will we find each others strength & encouragement to live out each day to the fullest. If no one else has our back at least we will have each others.
Live honest lives. So many things happen in life that change our course or purpose. Things that may tear us down or build us up. If we choose to be honest with each other as things arrive we will only be our best individually & together.
Live faithful lives. I know we've got some growth opportunities there, but it's a stepping stone to get to my final point of creating an above all family value. In time we will begin our family. And I know that we will be great parents no doubt about it, but I know we both agree that we have prepping to do before that happens. That being within ourselves & as a pair.
I can't wait to finish this journey. Creating the best life with you is going to be more than I can currently fathom. But I can't wait.... bring it on forever! Happy Halfaversary my love!
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